Just look below

Today has been blazing hot

Hotter than the furnace

Maybe hotter than anything ever

With the hot wind blowing

No one would ever think about other stuff

Except the heat

There were stuff running through my mind

Stuff that has been there for a while now

How I wish I could erase them

Or just forget them

I stared into space

And let my mind wander

There were voices and thoughts

Like hornets, bees

They gave me no peace, no silence

Telling what I should do

Telling me what's right or wrong

I closed my eyes

And tried to take control

But they were loud, stronger

Overpowering me 

Leaving me to deal with things

I've been hiding for so long

I will not cry

Nor will I be weak

I will fight

 For myself, my sanity

I am fine

I need no one to help me

I am strong

I will not be beaten

I will not stumble 

Nor will I be knocked down

I am fine

I'm drowning

I am fine

I'm losing grip

I am fine

I am fine

I am not fine, not fine..