Close

This close to crying

this close to breaking down

and

this close,

to just losing it.

The voices in my head 

they need to stop

they need to stop

I need my mind back

I don't want to run because 

I can't

I am so tired

So so tired

I have no words to describe it

there is no one to talk to here

I know they would have listened

but I know they wouldn't understand

I want someone to understand

I want someone to be there

but I can't allow them to

because I know I may reveal parts of me

the dark parts that not many can accept

It is not possible for someone to feel

this weary

this much pain

and still be functioning normally

To have these voices in your head

it's not normal.

I'm not normal.