How many times? Can you count?

How many times have we wondered about the reasons why?
How many times have we pondered about the things that doesn't make sense to us?
How many times have we thought about the "what if's" in life?
How many times have we regretted the things that we said and didn't say, the things that we did and the things that we didn't do?
How many times have we blamed ourselves for the things that didn't go well, the things that should have went well?
How many times have we hated ourselves for the things that we did, said to the ones that we love?
How many times have we tortured ourselves with that thought of wanting happiness for that someone even if it doesn't involve us?
How many times have we cried ourselves to sleep because the pain of breathing is too much, even in times of weariness?
How many times have we stopped ourselves from getting what we want because we are thinking of others?
How many times have we convinced ourselves that we didn't care even when it is all we want to care about?
How many times have we planned to leave but couldn't because we keep looking for more reasons to stay?
How many times have we tried to smile to convince the rest of the world that we're okay?
How many times have we laughed so loudly, not to convince others but ourselves that we are fine?
How many times have we drank so much that we don't remember half of the night, to just forget the pain?
How many times have we had that feeling of never wanting to let go when we hug someone?
How many times have we let ourselves suffer just because we love someone?
How many times have we told ourselves to let someone go when we know they are exactly what we want?
How many times have we looked into someone's eyes and know that we love them with everything that we have?

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How many times do I have to tell you that I love you, before you actually understand what I mean?