:)

It's like a rock has been lifted off my chest :)

Dead beat..

Actually beaten dead.

School in the morning,

Cheer practice following that for three and a half hours,

Basketball practice two hours later.

I think my legs are going to fall off.

Bah.

I'm glad today.

Very very happy :)

He talked to me today.

I like the way he smiles.

It's warm and nice.

I like the way he taps me on the shoulder

Just to say hi

I like the way he flips his hair

I think it's cool :D

I just like him xD

Bahahahahahahahah what am i saying...??

I'm so out of my league.. :/

Uggghhhh!!!

I'm not sure what to feel...

Not sure if I want to feel at all..

Should I cry?

Or should I get mad?

Is trying to smile a bad thing?

Or is it a good thing this time?

I can't let myself smile

While all I want to do

Is just cry inside

Where is the "pause" button when you need it? :/

Love you babe

Hope you're staying :'/

I wish that hadn't happen..

Today?

Good... I guess?

It was suppose to be awesome...

But... Things happen for some reason

Reasons that i really wish isn't what I'm thinking of..

That text...

God, I wish that hadn't happen.

I don't want her to go...

Seriously, no one wants that..

This sucks.. :/

There are times where you lose faith in hope.

For me,

I'm so close to it.

Sometimes.

You.

Just.

Want.

To.

Stop.

Adapting.

To.

Change.

And.

Give.

Up.

But.

When.

You.

Look.

At.

The.

People.

Who.

Mean.

So.

Much.

To.

You.

You.

Just.

Put.

On.

A.

Brave.

Face.

And.

Keep.

Going.

You know who you are. I love you. Don't ever let go because I'm not letting go of you.

Awesome life so far :D

Life is awesome

There are hellos

But there are goodbyes

Things change

While memories don't.

I learnt that

when you think your life is bad

There are others who are suffering more

and

those who look fine on the outside

are actually trying to be strong

when you look in their eyes

Sometimes

people just want you to care

and to just say you love them

It actually helps

if you take a second to listen,

or maybe say a word or encouragement

or give a hug and wipe their tears

You don't lose anything

if you show that you care

but how many these days,

care only for themselves

and thinking that

those who cry will smile again

How long will it take

for you to see past

the fake smiles and smudged make up?

How long will it take

for you to live in a world

that is not your own?

It takes little energy

to give a smile

or give a hug

It takes nothing but time

for you to listen

for you to care

We do not live alone in this world

And it's about time we act like it

Faith. Hope. Love.

That's all we need to live a life.

Am i annoying?? xD

Am i annoying?? xD

Answer here

Updates!!!!

1. I love my school!!!

2. I love my new friends and it's like ive known them forever :D

3. There are lessons in life that cannot be taught but exprienced by oneself.

4. I learnt that when i think my life sucks, there are others that are suffering much more than me.

5. I learn that new friends are made when you learn to smile and simply say hi.

The End for Now.

Sad at the moment

New School... Urghh...

New classes.. I got lost today

People? Come on, i don't know anybody here except for my ex classmates..

Feeling: Sad, depressed, upset, moody, almost in tears, stressed, frustrated...

Irony Parts:
1. I miss the things that i used to hate.
2. I miss the things that i used to complain about eg. toilet...
3. I miss the teachers that i sometimes hate cause of the tests and homework
4. I miss my friends that i hang out with everyday including her.. (Okay, this is not very ironic)
5. I miss hating school and complaining that the hours are too long.
6. I really hate the fact that I really want to leave school because I miss it so much now.
7. I miss the uniform that I hate to iron everyday.

They say people are afraid to change. It's true. Change hurts when everything around you changes and you're not ready for it.

It's hard not to feel lonely without someone close with you in a new environment. It hurts to feel so lonely in a sea full of people. It's harder when you miss someone so badly that you're close to tears but you know that they may be fine with or without you.

It's hard to cry and keep moving on. It's even harder to cry and try to keep moving on.

I wish 2010 would never end. It was the best year of my life.

Last goodbyes to Alviss Kong

Alviss Kong,

You should have seen the tears on their faces
You should have seen the sorrow in the midst of your friends and family
You should have seen the sadness in their eyes
If you have seen it,
You would still be here right now

They miss you
They love you
If you have seen it,
you would still be here right now

Can't you see
There will be other girls
She's not the only one left
Others, who will love you
Now you lost the chance to love another girl


I wish you would have picked up the phone
To call a family member or maybe for help
Anything would be better
Than to see you lifeless
I wish you would have stopped to think
That it wasn't the end
It wasn't your story's final chapter


I wish that you would have found
The other ways to cope
The other ways to smile
The other ways to laugh
The other reasons to live

We wish you did not go
We wish you did not close your eyes forever
You would have had a better life
Perhaps even another way to smile again

Unfortunately,
We are unable to change the past
Or the decision that you chose
All we can do now
Is to wept and mourn for you

Love is not dead
Love is not blind
Love does not kill
Neither does it give up

I wish you have known about this
I wish you wouldn't give up so quickly
I pray for your family
I pray for your friends
May they find peace to move on with life
Even though it is without you

R.I.P
Alviss Kong

She's leaving on the 10th of March

Current mood: Sad, upset, confused, a lil mad

Reason: Close friend going to nilai, KL in less than 4 months.

I can't go a week without seeing her once. Now I can't see her for more than 3 years except during Chinese New Year and Christmas?!?!

Can you blame me for hating her parents?
Can you blame me for hating the fact that I can only see her twice a year?
Can you blame me for hating I need a plane to get to her?
Can you even blame me for getting mad at all?!?!?!

Last two subjects of SPM.

Excited? Not really.

Sad? Yes, very.

Monday was my last day taking an exam with my class, S2Zhi. I miss everyone already.

I miss the toilet, teachers, friends, hall, library, canteen, very annoying principle *:D* and and and.... *cries*

Wish there was a way to let me relive this year one more time. I know there are a few very umm.. unpleasant moments but this year is THE MOST AMAZING YEAR of my life. I wouldn't give anything to change it.

My amazing friends..
Thank you for the birthday party and the cake.
Thank you for standing by me.
Thank you for having faith in me and believing that I can actually overcome my problems. Thank you for trusting in me and doubting the rumors along the way.
Thank you for not believing the worst of me and know in your hearts that I am modest.
Thank you for wiping away my tears and giving me unlimited hugs.
Thank you for putting up with me and my bad temper.
Thank you for sitting by me when I'm lonely.
Thank you for not saying anything but being there when I need you the most.
Thank you for giving me a chance again.
Thank you for reminding me that bullies are meant to be stood up to.
Most of all,
Thank you for teaching the real meaning of friendship.

'Nuf said :)
Night