Harry.

I know it makes no sense 'cause you walked out the door. At least it doesn't to me. I knew I won't be the one to end this because I know that I couldn't. Every song I hear reminds me of you and how everything used to be. The things that I do, remind me of you. Even things like plugs, it reminded me of what you said when I was trying describe something to you.

I don't remember crying. I don't remember being sad. I feel broken, like nothing is ever going to be right again. I can't cry, my body refuse to. I want to be upset so that I can get over this but I can't because right now, I can't feel anything. It's like my mind is refusing to feel anything that has to do with you. I've shed a few tears when I said my goodbyes but nothing much after that.

I keep wishing that you'll come back. I guess that's normal or maybe I still have that slight ray of hope left. She said she will kill me if I ever got back together with you. I don't know. It's like I'm so convinved that all that I am feeling now, that love for you, is something that I will never feel for anyone else. I love you, it's that simple but I wish everything was that simple.

You promised that you will be there forever. Who knew forever would be so short. I miss you. I understood everything you said and where you're coming from. I told you I would fight for it but it won't work out because you are not willing to fight harder.

I love you. I know this won't bring you back but I guess after so long, it became something I hold on to when I have nothing. I miss you all the time only now, I won't be able to say hi just like that. It hurts a lot but I'll be able to get by.

I love you and how I wish it was enough for you.

EXAMS ARE OVER MUTHAFAKAAAAAA!!!!

I guess the title says it all.

Soooooooooooooo, I haven't been blogging because I was busy with exams for the past month. Okay, maybe I was busy with trying to study for the exams but that is not the point.

I'm glad it's over and now I can blog without feeling guilty everytime I click the "New Post" link. It's a good feeling. I'm still waiting for the epic "FREEEEEEDOOOOOOOMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" moment to come but nyehhh, I'm still mellow as shit.

I can finally write without feeling bad. Yay for me. This might be one of the many more posts to come.

Shit happened so I guess my next post will be about that.

Oh wells, this is life.

Yay?!

Breathe Me.

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as oppsed to be completely crippled by this pain, you feel numb because you have no one left.

The only song that gives me hope for the moment.

Hold On 'Til The Night

[Verse 1]

Watching the minute hand

Frozen solid not moving

Still we believe we can

But we're afraid of losing

Watching from over here

Its hardly worth competing

I'm almost out of here

While breaking a heart that's beating

Just as I start giving up

I'm not backing up

[Chorus]

Run into the light

Get out of your own way

Not afraid to fight

Believe in what you say

I'll hold on till the night

Hanging by a thread

I'm not scared to let go

Thoughts inside your head

That creep up to get you

I believe this is right

So I'll hold on til the night

[Verse 2]

I climbed up on a tree

To get a new perspective

If love is worth the time

The price is being rejected

Just as I start falling down

I turned this around

[Bridge]

Hold on til I'm with you

All I've got to give you

All my fears are slowly fading to never know

Yes I start running running running running!!

Death in slow motion.

The lights start to dim,
And then, they start to flicker.
I blinked once, the lights look fine.
I swear I'm hallucinating.
There they go again.
On and off, on and off.

Everything started to move in slow motion.
I feel the pulse of my heart,
The red that flows through my body.
I think I saw the red staining my thigh.
The ringing in my ears won't stop.
I couldn't feel my hands, my head,
It's starting to hurt.
My mind doesn't seem to work, as it seems to be
Clouded.

I think I tried to stand up, but
I don't feel my legs working.
I'm trying so hard not to blink, because
I know that the moment I do,
Darkness and unconsciousness will swallow me whole.
I fought through it, I thought
I was going to die.

The ringing in my ears still hasn't stop,
My head is throbbing,
Nothing felt good.
Lying in a pool of red, well,
That doesn't seem like a good thing.
None of these seem like a good thing.

One more.
Just one more, and
Let me die.