Last goodbyes to Alviss Kong

Alviss Kong,

You should have seen the tears on their faces
You should have seen the sorrow in the midst of your friends and family
You should have seen the sadness in their eyes
If you have seen it,
You would still be here right now

They miss you
They love you
If you have seen it,
you would still be here right now

Can't you see
There will be other girls
She's not the only one left
Others, who will love you
Now you lost the chance to love another girl


I wish you would have picked up the phone
To call a family member or maybe for help
Anything would be better
Than to see you lifeless
I wish you would have stopped to think
That it wasn't the end
It wasn't your story's final chapter


I wish that you would have found
The other ways to cope
The other ways to smile
The other ways to laugh
The other reasons to live

We wish you did not go
We wish you did not close your eyes forever
You would have had a better life
Perhaps even another way to smile again

Unfortunately,
We are unable to change the past
Or the decision that you chose
All we can do now
Is to wept and mourn for you

Love is not dead
Love is not blind
Love does not kill
Neither does it give up

I wish you have known about this
I wish you wouldn't give up so quickly
I pray for your family
I pray for your friends
May they find peace to move on with life
Even though it is without you

R.I.P
Alviss Kong

She's leaving on the 10th of March

Current mood: Sad, upset, confused, a lil mad

Reason: Close friend going to nilai, KL in less than 4 months.

I can't go a week without seeing her once. Now I can't see her for more than 3 years except during Chinese New Year and Christmas?!?!

Can you blame me for hating her parents?
Can you blame me for hating the fact that I can only see her twice a year?
Can you blame me for hating I need a plane to get to her?
Can you even blame me for getting mad at all?!?!?!

Last two subjects of SPM.

Excited? Not really.

Sad? Yes, very.

Monday was my last day taking an exam with my class, S2Zhi. I miss everyone already.

I miss the toilet, teachers, friends, hall, library, canteen, very annoying principle *:D* and and and.... *cries*

Wish there was a way to let me relive this year one more time. I know there are a few very umm.. unpleasant moments but this year is THE MOST AMAZING YEAR of my life. I wouldn't give anything to change it.

My amazing friends..
Thank you for the birthday party and the cake.
Thank you for standing by me.
Thank you for having faith in me and believing that I can actually overcome my problems. Thank you for trusting in me and doubting the rumors along the way.
Thank you for not believing the worst of me and know in your hearts that I am modest.
Thank you for wiping away my tears and giving me unlimited hugs.
Thank you for putting up with me and my bad temper.
Thank you for sitting by me when I'm lonely.
Thank you for not saying anything but being there when I need you the most.
Thank you for giving me a chance again.
Thank you for reminding me that bullies are meant to be stood up to.
Most of all,
Thank you for teaching the real meaning of friendship.

'Nuf said :)
Night

First blog in 2010..
SPM
Chemistry papers tomorrow
Should not be here writing this...
Should be up there studying *points*

Current thoughts...
Don't wanna grow up..
Will miss my friends when I go to IS next year..
Will miss my best friend That Vui Ting
Don't want to study... Really..
Am missing my best friend already..
Not really smiling cause am thinking about SPM..
The spaghetti I made is delicious..
Heart somehow in pain... :/

Things I think I'm going to do
Study I guess...
Suffer..
Stay up real late
Miss a few hours of Zzz's

Thing I will do in the future
Will blog after tomorrow..



Write later.... Bye.. ^^V